Monday December 5th, 2022-My back hurts

:p. I’m doing bad. I’m not upset I’m just… doing bad. I’m so sick of school I hate school so much. I may have to take 2 of my finals my last two classes. Which is incredibly annoying because that means I have to do both fuckin days because it’s even and odd hours. Whatever. Like what if I don’t? I’ll have to take it on a normal day? boo fuckin hoo. Small price to pay for not having a shitty boring long ass school day with a fucked up routine. I have to get music on that friday… I don’t know how I’m gonna do that.

I’ve been thinking about my future. I don’t want to do anything. And I don’t mean like “I don’t want to have a job I want to draw all day” or “I do not dream of labor” I mean. I don’t want to do anything. I have no drive. I do not want to do anything. I don’t even know what I like. There’s nothing I would really mind going without. I hate doing things. I don’t do anything right now but school and orchestra. And orchestra takes like… nothing. No time outside of 2 things a month. And I’m constantly stressed an upset!! I don’t know what I’m gonna do when I graduate. I’ve joked about banging my head on the wall until I qualify for disability but I don’t know. Maybe I will. No I…if I could pull that off I probably… wouldn’t be here already.

I watched the office again. Up to Micheal leaving + the last episode. I like the office. Angela is my favorite and she and Dwight are my favorite couple. Mostly because Angela is like 5’1” and Rainn is 6’2”. Anyway I don’t mind the episodes after Micheal but I kept being distracted wanting to watch it so I decided that was my cutting off point. I also like Andy a lot and they just kill him. So. Also I wish they played the Little Drummer Boy at Dwight and Angela’s wedding. Like she wanted with Andy. I don’t know.

I wanna do more coding. I don’t know… idk what to add to this site. I like coding but I don’t have any ideas.